About four months into this new approach to marriage, I first had the thought, You know, maybe I could have positive feelings for her again. I hadn’t had warm feelings for a long time. My feelings were those of hurt, anger, and bitterness. I was angry at God, angry at myself, and angry with my wife for a long time. I was mad at God because I reasoned, “Before I got married, I asked you, ‘Don’t let me marry her if she is not the right one,’ and you let me do it.” I was mad at God for getting me into
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